This morning as I (Andrea)sit and think about what I should write, I feel like God has been continually bringing something to the surface. Well, let me restate that. Satan has been shouting at me, challenging me in my thinking and confidence and My God has been whispering over and over to counter Satan’s lies. This morning I am finally hearing the whispers loud and clear.
Gary and I are new to this whole “walking with people as they find healing” thing, at least on an official level. Although we have walked with people In the past, This ministry is brand new and we are just getting started “officially”. Last week we had our first “official” meeting with a couple as a ministry. I’m not gonna lie, it felt like a big fat fail on our part. I have struggled throughout this entire process with feelings that we are just not “good enough”, that we don’t speak eloquently enough, that others will question whether we are ready or not, and that we will fail those we are trying to help. Satan has been shouting at me for some time now, these and many other things. I have been allowing the lies to literally paralyze me from moving forward. If you are a parent or a teacher or work with kids on any level, have you ever noticed that changing the sound of your voice from a shout to a whisper gets a better response? Our God knows that a whisper is so much more powerful than a shout. He whispers and waits…whispers and waits… whispers and waits…Such a patient God he is. Such a grateful Child am I for this patience. The past day or so I have heard Him say…
YOU are not good enough, I AM.
-YOUR words are not eloquent but MINE ARE!
-YOU may fail people, but I WON’T!
This is not OUR ministry, it’s HIS. It’s our story but it’s not for our Glory it’s for HIS. The problem I’ve been having is that I am looking at it from a human perspective. In my very human nature, I have been wanting to take the credit, both good and bad, for it’s success. Guess what, I don’t get to nor do I have to, and neither do you! Are you being paralyzed by the same lies? You might not be starting a ministry but you might be hearing a calling to step out, live bold, or simply speak with boldness and truth to a friend or loved one. So many times in the bible God called people, people who were very ill equipped to do the job he was asking. You know why? Because when he calls those who seem less than the job requires, then He gets the glory when the job gets done despite our failings.
Today my challenge is as much for me as it is for you. Let’s let God use us! Let him do great things in spite of us. Take a Step out, Be bold, and most importantly LISTEN for the whispers of truth!!