Friends of Proclaiming Freedom, Friends of ours…If you are still here reading this blog after everything we have shared then I can certainly call you friends! Gary and I had an amazing weekend full so many emotions, The “Refine Us Date Night” was a huge success. Those of you who were with us Friday night, thank you for taking the time to spend your evening with us. Our hope is that you were able to take away more than just dinner and a “show” so to speak. Our prayer leading up to Friday night was that The Lord use the evening to speak to each and every person in a unique way…To meet you right where you were. It’s our belief that he did!
Some needed encouragement, to know that they were on the right track,
Some needed the Holy Spirits nudging (others needed shoving) to act or
make a change.
Some needed a wake up call
Many, needed HOPE!
Overall we desired for our message to be about HOPE. That no matter where your marriage is, no matter how many years you have been battling and trudging along, In Christ, there is HOPE! If you have read the first blog post or you were there Friday night, or perhaps you just walked with us over the years, you know some of our story. Honestly, in the eyes of the world, even many in the church, our marriage should be over. The years of betrayal and heart ache seem too much to “get over”. Too much to risk getting hurt again. I’m not going to lie and say it was a piece of cake or that it wasn’t heartbreaking, however, my mind never wavered from believing in God for Gary’s redemption story. I always had HOPE…I believed that surrender was possible and that God was in hot pursuit of Gary’s soul. What I didn’t realize is that God was persuing me as well. You see, over the many years of hurt and betrayal I had built walls up around me. Walls of what I deemed protection. Walls that wouldn’t allow me to be “hurt” but also wouldn’t allow God in. (more about this in a future post) Thankfully, I finally realized my need for surrender as well.
Today, we are two souls, damaged and wounded, but most importantly redeemed. We are better together because we surrendered separately and allowed God to work on us as individuals. Friday night Justin said that his counselor told him that “she could help broken people, but not a hard hearted ones. I think this is God’s motto too. When we are broken, God can strip us down to nothing and rebuild. When we try to hold it all together, we don’t allow him access to all parts of our heart and life and it’s difficult for Him to rebuild because we are holding tightly to so many pieces There is HOPE if we can surrender and let go of those pieces.
In the last 4 years Gary and I have become keenly aware of the spiritual battle here on this earth. We firmly believe that Satan is choosing to attack the church by tearing apart marriages. If he can tear down one marriage at time, he can take down the church. One of his biggest tools in this destruction is pornography. It’s considered the secret sin. It’s a sin that is so much easier to hide than other sins and the shame that goes with being found out is extremely heavy.
Secrecy and Shame are two of the devils biggest weapons!
Although Gary and I are super nervous and anxious, we are so very excited to be free from secrecy and shame! We will not allow Satan to use those two things against us anymore. We share OUR story for GOD’S glory. We humbly stand tall knowing that God redeemed our relationship, not us. We are excited to travel the path ahead knowing HE goes before us and lights the way. We press into this scary path because we long for others to find the same HOPE that we did. Thank you for walking with us!